Life Lately

Sunday, 26 August 2018

It feels like forever since I last sat down to write. To the point where now that I'm doing it, I don't really know where to begin. I suppose just having a chat about what has been going on recently is a good place to start.

You might have noticed it's been really quiet on my blog and across all of my social media platforms. I had absolutely no intention of taking a break, and even then I only wanted to step away from the blog for a week or two at the most. Instead it's been about six weeks and I feel like I'm completely out of touch with the community and just blogging as a whole.

So, what's been going on? Well, I'm not really ready to go into too much detail just yet but let's just say that back in April, our family received some news. The earth-shattering, devastating kind of news. The kind that causes your world to shift.

I tried really hard for a long time to pretend that it didn't affect me. Or that it affected me just enough to not overwhelm. I went to work and I smiled and I chatted and I got on with my job, I came home and did my admin work and I blogged and I cried when I felt the need to but I also wiped my eyes after a few minutes, put on my big brave girl face and carried on.

The problem with that tactic though, is that it only works for so long.

And the thing is with blogging, even though I love it and it was the only thing that kept me sane for a long time, when even existing, when doing the mundane things like getting up and brushing your teeth and getting yourself out of the house for work on time is exhausting, it pretty much quashes any creativity you have.

And let's face it, we all know there's a lot more to what we do than just write posts. There's the taking photos, editing, scheduling tweets, brainstorming ideas, being active on social media. And I just didn't have the mental energy anymore.

I won't blog if it feels like a chore. Yes I have a schedule and a to-do list, but if I don't fancy it, or I need to take a day for me, I'll do exactly that. I guess that's the beauty of your blog being just a hobby.

I've missed everything about blogging so much over the last few weeks. I've missed writing, taking photos, chatting away to people online, being active on InstaStories. All of it.

So, what now? Things aren't perfect. Some days I still feel like we're in complete turmoil. But they're definitely on the up and I feel more like myself. And I am so ready to come back into blogging and working away on new content. Let's go!

Love,
Sian xo

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